Thursday, November 09, 2006
I duno what to write... so I'm just going to start off with a sentence and see where it takes me. It's just a trial of something I have my mind on... So don't dis me k :P
I'm so scared now... I don't know why I did and what I was thinking, there was nothing in what I did... Just plain stupidity... Now I have to take care... to guard this secret close... That no one else would now. I have to put an end to this. I would do anything to go back and stop it. It was... empty, meaningless... nothin... Just a lot of rubbish... I'm so lucky I chickened out from writing it down... If I had published it... omg... Maybe I shouldn't publish this... Maybe I should keep it away... far from the prying eyes of the people of this world. They mean nothing to me. Nothing! Pain, misunderstanding... nothin...For once in my life, I would want to do what I want, without other people pointing at me and telling me that I am not acting the way they want me to... I just wish... that they would let me be myself, accept me as who I am... I hate being used by other people, being used to their fufill what they want. Just once, I would like to have time for myself, where I can do what I wish and not feel guilty that I forgot to do something so and so asked me to help them with... I wish I could have time to do things I enjoy... To pursue my passion... to learn...
uhrmm... ookayyy... Not what I expected... but... LOL. Hmm... I'm jsut writing wutever comes to mind, so maybe the title should be... A Glimpse Through The Window of Madness! >.< =p
5:22 PM; unforgotten.Y